great masterpiece, great stories? lol

i seriously cant help but wonders the familiarity of this song.
nella fantasia is the song, with gabriel's oboe as the sound.
how nice, gabriel's oboe was already a masterpiece.
something that could make me calm.
and add on with the lyrics..
its super duper masterpiece.

and ohh..im stuck with QOM now.
due to this piece.
i wonder if i have time to watch them.

i've been wondering and pondering,
what are my dreams.
is it that career that i always have done [not wanted]
or.. something that makes me satisfied.

of coz, marriage is still the number one thing.
well u see, im growing old and older.
and parents, relatives, are nagging at me.
worrying tt im still left on the shelf
[btw, im ONLY 24!!]
so yeah..

i actually told my bestie tt i miss the stage.
i miss goin on to the stage and perform.
[not talking, but playing instruments]
joining the cca way back then in sec skol was SERIOUS a mistake.
i do have fun in pri skol though.
idk...
but as time goes by,
i dun wish to regret.

skol is finally over.
with theory and soon, 1 more paper.
left with attachments and the battlefield of 2 yrs.
sigh..
i seriously wish that i could have done better..

i seriously wish that i could revert back time when i was 3 yrs old.
i shld have not cried or refused when my mum wanna put me in piano class
ohhh well,
tts my path u see.
all i need to do is change and see whats the future lies for me.
sigh sigh sigh

saying hello...in a boring way. lolz

taking the time to blog..
at least for now.
i noe im getting boring here..

my life is like a cycle.
home-skol-home-skol.

i got no time to socialize outside except via the net.
and that is only within my comfort level.
as in..only limited to those i noe.

i dunnoe, but technology does sucks
i hate to admit tt im one of those technology suckers.
i need my mp3, well, not anymore, its hp! to listen to my kpop songs.
blasted thru the ears, really into my own world.

not only tt, its FB-ing all the time,
home, on the way to skol...wherever.
be it wireless or not..

anyway, i dun find a purpose to talk abt technology.
coz im not a right person to condemn or watsoever.

all i noe is that i love gadgets.
hp, camera, videos, games....
but yeah, its the time tt limits me to all these.

actually i do love machines.
but to see that a fren is so curious abt machines,
i became one of those ppl who laughs at him, shaking my head everytime he touch something..
a machine i mean. LOL
my bad..

ohhh im beginning to rant.
it soon gonna be wat a fren will say..
"a disaster cum preparation for funeral day"
everytime a test, exam paper, presentations or anything related to grading system.
LOL at her.
but its kinda of....cute?!
keke

im having a debate, a bio paper and my convocation in approximately 6 hrs time.
and wat the hell im doin here
u say lehz...
"take 5"
a fren will tell me.

so im "take 5" here in my own a diary entry, but now become a ventilation port for me.
im so excited to finally have convocation.
but a close fren is not,
and another close fren is not coming.
hmphhh...
JUZ WAT HAD HAPPENED TO OUR PROMISES??
well juz fine..
i SHALL enjoy myself,
its my hard worked earned money.
ok...minus off that crazy schedules of coming to skol on weekends
and rushing thru our assignments, presentations like mad.
my house has since became a memory whenever the word, law & ethics or research arises.
y?
coz my room is the port of all these messy assignments.
LOL! i missed those days.

and yes, lets HOPE for future meet ups. or mayb a gateaway.
which i can predict..
NOT ANYTIME SOON!

i got another 3 mins.
before another cycle of revisions.
well, its mad.
seeing myself in the mirror [ok, im exaggerating]
i find tt i slacked too much.
exams is like later on...
but i only take the initiatives to start revising or mayb i shld say..
READ..
at 12midnight todae.
amazed?

im not!
i seriously have no way of motivation to get my ass off studying.
i guess its juz enough tt my brain cells are depleting.
n i will TRY to force myself to stop studying..
at least for this kind of course.
and its not tt i dun like it though.

this is when im envious of those who have their own family surrounded them.
i want to have one too.
but im too shy away from them to start a relationship.
and
psssssttt...my parents are bugging me to search for a bf.
sigh.
at this kind of age..
who doesnt want to have a partner of life.
its juz whether this person is worth for u..
that matters.

alrite..
my 3 mins is up.
gotta gooooooo and
crack my head for another cycle of revision...
WOHOOOOOO....
lolz...

give up!

i really want to give up NOW!!

like seriously!

i SHOULD have just quit!

hmph!!!!

best of frenz

i dunnoe why, but i really feel like blogging now.
maybe i have that urgency to squeeze my brain for the lectures.
well, im glad that i took the course now than later.
coz it just meant tt my brain is not how it used to be last time.

anyway enough of studying [and apparently, i've not started revision!]

just a little recap of what i've been doing the past few days..
[and again, im so sure that no one read my blog]
lolx

took pictures of Jimmy's N Eunice's ROM.
that day..
i was juz capturing eunice. well, fb is too much..
i tried uploading the pics over there and it had failed me 4th times.
anyway, gonna try my last hands on it there.
if still failed me..
then i get jimmy to post up. lolz.

anyway...CONGRATS again. dun forget to invite me to your chinese wedding. hehe

went out with the Animals todae.
was a great joy!
couldnt concentrate on lectures in class.
due to the massive SMS-es
anyway...the day is sooo fun n great.
lets try out clubbing people.
n ohh yeah..
dun forget the Hen's party too!

shld we organize a Rooster's party for our dear fren too??!! lol!

n i wonder when the P.As are meeting.
organize one soon buddies...

i'm so in love....

with Photography!
{evil laugh}
i'm so in love to play with my old-new toy!

with that many excuses i've made while working
"busy working, no time to take pictures!"
i'm trying to compensate while studying.
in case many doesnt know,
im continuing with advanced diploma in nursing [medical-surgical]
well, not something to be proud of though.
but somehow i know that no one is going to read my post anyway.
lol

so take it as a personal entry from me to remind that
FINALLY SITI, YOU HAVE TIME FOR PHOTOGRAPHY!!!

i do envy my cousin though.
he put so much into photography that it become a source of income for him.
congrats cousin.
you have talent.
me...im just a beginner, with no inside out of the basic knowlegde.
only with the beliefs that i took better pictures than my other close friends.
call it 'intuiton'
watever.

but does that mean...
i have to expand my collections.
most not in the meant time.
im serious abt this hobby
but i guess my lens is all i have and need for the time being!
LOLZ

anyway...
its finally ROM for Jim n Eunice.
CONGRATULATIONS!!!

**lets hope everything goes well for me tml...y? coz..this bugger[oops] appoint me to take pictures for him eventhough he knows im not that good. its juz that i have good camera! well done mr khoo! lol!**

should i be happy or sad?

if it meant to release that burden

im willing to listen

eventhough im shocked

but even so...

you are still my dear friend!

....the Last ROund of night....

how i ended my 3 graveyard shifts?

1st night:
its simple, quiet but lots of "anger" towards the cute yelling auntie.

2nd Night:
muscles developed from pushing patient's bed up and down the hospital. with some sarcastic remarks from overflow doctor for not knowing how to assist him in a procedure.
-maybe he forgot that this nurse is a first timer in THAT KIND of procedure-
n not to forget, the worse combination of the on-call people.

3rd Night:
the F***king call bells are killing and draining us down. screw the person who invents call bells.
n its a bleeding/ diarrhoea changing diapers/bedsheets every hour.
-Should i be angry or what? its entirely not their fault that they have to be in state, but at least a please or a thank you is sufficient enough to make our day-
and at some last minute @ odd hours,
she just stopped breathing! after making SOOOO much noise the entire night.
-somehow, i felt better that she is at a much better place than to suffer from this-

n there goes the tired 3 nights.
not to forget,
my LAST ROUND of night.
in ward 57.

GOODBYE night shift.
GOODBYE all my NICE NIGHT staffs.
GOODBYE that entire nearly 4 years of learning.

n again..
i ask myself..
"am i happy?"

it will be my last round of nite..

its gonna be..

GOODBYE!

bye mother ward.

bye lovely people out there.

for the gal who always need guidance...

and always have guided is going off...

to chase management dreams..

n not of hers..

<><><><><><><><><><><><><><>

so long people...

be happy! n smile always!!

n it will be the last round of nite....

am i happy?? **shrugss**

4th off day, n its killing me!

everywhere i go to..
it only reminds me of Japan
i dunnoe why,
mayb im attached to that place.

oh well,
bring me back to my homeland..tt is..singapore!

its the 4th day of my off day!
n yesh,
i've been home all this time.
except for some outing spent with mum.

n tts where, i wished im at work,
or doing something worthwhile.
its when..
someone raised tt marriage issue.

pressurising?
nope.

i can escape from this qns which i dread to answer.
n somehow, i always have tt reason.
n tt answer.

todae...i tried playing my guitar which has been collecting dusts at the corner of the room.
n felt stupid after trying to play and play.
coz i've yet learned how to play chords.
tts when i think,
ohhh guitar is soo not me.
shld have gotten myself a keyboard instead.
mayb next time

but me visualizing myself playing it is so great.
mayb i shld get a teacher.
tts only when i have a free time for myself.
hmphh

n i sooo have to get back to my DSR!
need to buy some lighter lens.
and a dry box too!
i hope it doesnt mould in there. jeez!
my current lens is heavy. and super long.
and i couldnt bring myself to bring it to some function.
coz im not a professional yet.
lol!

oh yah...Nyp is taking tooooo bloody long to confirmed out placement.
n im getting sick of waiting.
for...
i have plans IF im not included in the placement.
lolz.
ITS VACATION BABY!

if only.

i seriously wanna give up now.

give up the whole damn thing abt the organization, the career and watever else is there?
im tired. im seriously am.
i wonder who's hearing? i wonder who's eye-ing?
n i dun need to be in tt position for the better.

if only...
something which i shldnt be doin.
but i got no choice..

if only...
a hopeful word with little assurance.

if only...
i follow my heart.

i would have left if i have tt money with me.
but yeah..
if only.

and yesh sri, thank god u someone who as crazy in kpop as me. lolz!!
lets meet one day.

currently listening to.

Untouchable ft Narsha- living in the heart


Min Kyung Hoon- it hurts because its love

awaiting....

i'm back from MIA!

actually its not. im so lazy to update.
my routine life..

has always been the same.

work...eat...sleep..
its rarely goin out with frenz.

oh boy, im missing the ladies n gentlemans now.
lets planned up another outing will us?
lolz.

n im kinda having tt guilty idea of not making it to redang.
im sooo sorry ladies.
i'll try to make up one day, i hope!

n so...
im waiting for my confirmation to NYP.
for advanced dip in med-surg.

dun tell me anything, dun ask me anything.
im so noe wat u are gonna say.
this journey...
is like wasting on me.
**nodding my head**

can someone pls remind me again, tt i dun need tt qualification for now...
wat i need is experience....

currently listening to....
2AM- i DId wroNg

that decision..

i was made to think abt my future.

i was made to think abt skol.

if its money, i would go for tt course.
but yet again..

how much i was paid for.

i cant decide between med-surg and geron.

CCU is definitely out of the qns.

i dunnoe...but i juz have no interest in tt.

n zal2,
YOU r definitely the best!

while many answer me as medsurg or ccu...
u answer me as..
"klau geron org tua2, kau amik med surg sudahlah!"


hmmmm...

it's D-day...

yen

its de Day im Waiting for.
farmer told me tt i muz be excited since i sms her almost every day for the outing.

who's not?

its the 1st time

1) goin OUT of the country, n i mean...further from mlysia.

2) maiden flight!

3) with my good frenz. too bad kim is skoling- if not, she will be in de list too. ohh man.

my bags finally packed. gonna be bringing lesser clothes now tt i saw the goodies there. hahahah.

anyway...see u gals around!

bloody stress

it sucks!
work has been especially tiring these days.
nights spent on report, which i have no idea how to finish it up, although i have those information.

n getting excited to go japan doesnt HELP at all..
coz i need to go thru those obstacles of REPORT n AUDIT before i can even think abt goin japan.
tt bad. yeah i noe.

n im already rope-d in into another PROJECT!
can i SAY NO??? CAN I!!
if its not for her..
i think i wont be in....

argh...
bloody stress!

big project.

oh dear...
juz as i was abt to countdown to de big audit tt nv 'attracts' me @ all,
[well, its more of de JAPAN trip though]
i NEED to do QI report due this month
6 reports need to be up within half a yr to be sent out to other countries.
[n thinking of goin up to the stage alone to present, YIKES!]

another rushing moment...again.
seriously i need to get some confirmation with regards to this.
i seriously doesnt noe who to contact for the format.
n yet, i agree to do this report
ALL BY MYSELF!

maybe its the crazy 24th syndrome.
or...
mayb its juz me.
with my motto of life..
which i kinda of forget wat the hell it is.

another side matter.
many noes the reason y im goin for tt impromtu trip
seriously gals,
i will TRY to get something for u fans out there.

kinda of excited.
still have another 2 days of itinaries to be done
n we are done...
left packing though.
[heard it will be bloody cold there]

but who cares..
im going out!
:D

paintballl

i love goin out with my collegues.

n i love PAINTBALL todae.
of which, its more of "PAIN-ball" as quoted by Ashley.
keke

i got knocked down during the 1st elimination round
of which,
someone apparently hit my neck.
the 1st thing i could do was to touch de neck..
hopefully tt the liquid tt flowed down is NOT BLOOD!
pheww....
i was lucky.
now im having broken skin to the neck.
with an excruciating pain im having now...
im wondering how to go work tml..

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

anyway gals!
i enjoyed todae,
juz how i enjoyed the other day.

:D

excited + happy!

im soo excited now.



me n kirin r 3/4 ways to planning itinaries to our JAPAN trip...
hopefully things goes well for now..and then.
eversince tt controversies abt GD lately.
we r keeping our fingers real cross.
we sooo wanna meet them.


p/s to sri: if u read this, IM GOIN TO WATCH BB!!!! kekeke


financial issues aside,
we cant wait for the trip
as it will be our 1st time travelling overseas together.
it would be the 2nd if redang happens in april later.

**still a/w confirmation from mar n dy, hopefully u gals can make it! we planned this for long already**



great news along the way.
a best fren of mine is FINALLY getting himself R.O.M.!
n im invited!
WOHOOO!!


uhmppp....
so gonna be broke this 1st half of the yr..
but yeah,
de blissful living matters! **winks**



n de questions tt been showering me when such event arises...
" WHen is YOUR turn?"



with de most brightest smile i have..

my answer...

"WHen the time is..."

-_-

J.A.P.A.N.....cant wait!

3 more weeks to...

JAPAN!

im sooo cant wait to see BigBang concert!!
n of coz...
1st time travelling by plane too!

couldnt keep tt excitement any longer.
i have the camera..
only i dun really noe the functions to it.
n of coz...
de best thing ever.
tt trip to japan.

kekeke...

n im sooooo bloody broke now.